So, summer past so fast and mainly due to it being a "bad" summer when it comes to weather here, but also due to me working all summer. That´s the life of being a student, working all summer and no free time=)
Being a student in my age is a bit harder, both financially as well as getting the life puzzle together with lots of kids and so on so its a bit stressy at times.
For me, I cope quite OK with stress if I can see that I can solve the things I have ahead of me, but when I feel life is swallowing me and I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel, I get really stressed and can get anxiety attacks. I don't know if any of you have panic attacks or anxiety but I have had that during my life. Some periods in my life it´s been less of it and or course this has to do with if life is smooth, not so many mountains to climb and I have people around me who are positive.
The periods when I´ve had more of this is when I feel "trapped", when people make me feel I can't be myself, when I can't see any way to get out of the situation and so on.
It´s not so bad so that I can't get through this, cause I have so "small" attacks of this nowadays and when they come I know how to deal with them but of course when I was younger it was harder.
To be in a panic attack is horrible cause I feel like I can't breathe, I have a feeling of being "trapped" and my lungs and heart just shrink and I get such hyperventilation and pain in my chest that if you don't know what this is, you might think its a heart attack.
Friends of mine have had their first attack and had to go with an ambulance to the hospital believing they were dying. Thats how horrible this is.
If I knew when I was a teenager, what I know now about this, I believe I could have gotten through my attacks easier. And if people around me knew back then. And maybe many of my hardest times with this could had been easier.
If you have panic attacks and struggling with them, go read this and learn more cause you can get help and do many things to self-help.
Love and light,