Happy Monday to you too my dear! Here a lazy day I think as I feel tired since yesterday! After my 1h30 workout I came back home, took a shower and fell asleep at 7! Ahah! I really was tired! ^^
But also feel I should say this, last year, I was at the lowest point I've ever been in my life... Was deeply depressed, was having anxiety attacks almost every day, pretty much hated myself for being a lesbian, it just kept getting worse, until I got to the point where one night I contemplated hurting myself, the main reason I didn't was because I knew if I hurt myself, I would probably have been outed to my family as gay, and I was at the same time as contemplating self harm, terrified by my own thoughts. I was 20 years old at that point, I'd never harmed myself, though I have done some stupid and self destructive things, but more from sheer recklessness and stupidity than actually intending to harm myself. I managed to pull myself up after this episode, I posted on your old blog that I had come close to harming myself, and you told me you were glad that I didn't harm myself, and that if I needed support to post there, because you and others would give me support. Not long after this, my dear grandmother passed away unexpectedly, had I not had all the support I got when she passed, I don't know how I would have coped, and that does include the support you offered me. I do believe that without enough support, I could've been completely broken by it. Almost a year on, all of this still hurts, but my life has gotten so much better as well. I came out to my family as gay at the end of last year, they could not be more supportive of me, I'm back at university now as well, after basically being kicked out for 6 months because I failed a subject, I also sell my own artwork online now, and I also am getting involved in local groups in my community to hopefully help out the younger kids who get picked on for being gay (gay, lesbian, bisexual and trans youth in Australia are more than twice as likely to commit suicide than their straight counterparts, it is just disturbing). I still have my issues, but having gotten through all that I did get through, it has made me a better person.
Basically, thank you, I don't know where I'd be if you hadn't given me some support when I needed it.
Happy Monday to you too my dear!
ReplyDeleteHere a lazy day I think as I feel tired since yesterday! After my 1h30 workout I came back home, took a shower and fell asleep at 7! Ahah! I really was tired! ^^
And that shoot is really great!
Enjoy your day!
Love and Hugs
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I'm looking forward to thursday, I turn 21 ;)
ReplyDeleteBut also feel I should say this, last year, I was at the lowest point I've ever been in my life... Was deeply depressed, was having anxiety attacks almost every day, pretty much hated myself for being a lesbian, it just kept getting worse, until I got to the point where one night I contemplated hurting myself, the main reason I didn't was because I knew if I hurt myself, I would probably have been outed to my family as gay, and I was at the same time as contemplating self harm, terrified by my own thoughts. I was 20 years old at that point, I'd never harmed myself, though I have done some stupid and self destructive things, but more from sheer recklessness and stupidity than actually intending to harm myself. I managed to pull myself up after this episode, I posted on your old blog that I had come close to harming myself, and you told me you were glad that I didn't harm myself, and that if I needed support to post there, because you and others would give me support. Not long after this, my dear grandmother passed away unexpectedly, had I not had all the support I got when she passed, I don't know how I would have coped, and that does include the support you offered me. I do believe that without enough support, I could've been completely broken by it. Almost a year on, all of this still hurts, but my life has gotten so much better as well. I came out to my family as gay at the end of last year, they could not be more supportive of me, I'm back at university now as well, after basically being kicked out for 6 months because I failed a subject, I also sell my own artwork online now, and I also am getting involved in local groups in my community to hopefully help out the younger kids who get picked on for being gay (gay, lesbian, bisexual and trans youth in Australia are more than twice as likely to commit suicide than their straight counterparts, it is just disturbing). I still have my issues, but having gotten through all that I did get through, it has made me a better person.
Basically, thank you, I don't know where I'd be if you hadn't given me some support when I needed it.
Have a wonderful day xoxo.
-Meghan
Cool photo! Love it ;)
ReplyDeleteHave a happy and nice week, Anette!
thank you anette =)have a wonderful week too
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